I’ve had a few ideas in these past few weeks that I’ve been meaning to write about. However, it didn’t feel right for me to write them. This one, however, I knew I had to make something out of it.

It starts like this.

But quick note: I’ve been watching The Great for around two weeks, lol. Imagine that I either speak like Elle Fanning’s Catherine or Nicholas Hoult’s Peter in some sentences, hahaha.

It’s funny.

I write about centering, grounding, and discipline during Gemini season. I would associate Gemini with being full of activity all over the place. However, it seems I’m not in that state.

One of the major transits this year is Jupiter in Cancer, but one other major transit is affecting me greatly more than the others: Saturn in Aries.

I’ve already experienced my Saturn return. Yet, for some reason, I’m called to become more centered, grounded, and disciplined. Thus, the blog title.

I suppose I could simplify the centering and grounding by saying that I’m doing meditation. It’s been my habit for more than two years. I admit, the grounding part needs more work. For those who still haven’t followed, I refer to grounding as the technique to help you deal with negative emotions or simply just thoughts floating about (which does have a Gemini-esque quality to it).

The discipline one– that I have to elaborate further.

Let me divide this into two parts: personal and professional. Let’s go with professional first. I had to write personal and professional in that order because it sounds better when you speak that out loud. LOL.

(The Need for) Professional Discipline

Last year, I had a coaching session with Fleur De Lyz Coaching (she’s part of my business and blog recommendations). One of the main areas of concern that we tackled then was time management. I also talked about this with my former counselor.

I have issues with time management because I keep putting things off at the last minute. One would say I’m a professional procrastinator. It affects my well-being and my free time. It was resolved.

Briefly.

I forgot what the time management solution was but I remember that I had to break down one big task into smaller ones or use the Pomodoro technique. This helped me immensely! After working, I could dedicate time to personal things. Plus, I can go out of the house anytime.

Unfortunately, it ended because I had trouble following through. I tend to start things and don’t finish them. Another trait of a classic textbook procrastinator.

I would rather not elaborate further on how this affected me. However, let’s just say that this coupled with demotivation led me to realize that it was time for change.

My work arrangement is different this time ‘round. I use time trackers. I have mixed feelings about them but if it gets the work done and I get compensated properly then that’s fine. I can’t say if there’s a big change in how I work, but time trackers are somewhat helping me with becoming disciplined at work.

Let’s see if I do follow through this time.

Honestly, I need to.

I saw a tweet maybe a year or two ago saying that if you want to live your dream life, you have to start living or practicing that. And I feel like with my working arrangement now; it’s a wake-up call for me to work more efficiently without costing my personal time. And that eventually when I get more disciplined, I can get to my dream life.

(The Case for) Personal Discipline

Regarding personal discipline, I have two major themes to discuss.

First is sleep.

I must confess (Christ, The Great is getting to me lol) that I haven’t given my body the love it needs through adequate sleep. I sleep at 12 or 1 AM which is concerning given my health conditions. Sleeping at those hours and waking up at 7 AM feels like a disservice to my overall health.

I’m not saying I’m consistent yet, but I’m taking small steps to do this. I NEED to do this because it ties in with professional discipline, too. I think of it this way: the earlier I wake up, the earlier I can finish my tasks.

Second is exercise (which is aligned with Saturn in Aries)

I don’t detest exercise.

I love doing exercise because it shows what my body can do and how far my limits can take me.

I do light 10 to 15-minute exercises every other day or when I feel like it. It’s not a bad thing! It’s just… it’s not helping me generally anymore. And it’s a sign of progress, of course; which means I can do longer exercises or move up a level.

I have been doing my part with the exercises lately. And at times when I need a rest day, I just walk around the house. It’s my way of staying active without changing into my workout clothes.

And as I write this, I realize that Saturn in Aries is kicking my ass more. But I know that the universe thinks that I need to do this work to reap the rewards and benefits.

Final Thoughts

Fuck you Saturn in Aries.

LOL JK.

I am so tempted to end it that way, but cursing a planetary aspect doesn’t seem dignified. Instead, I must rewire my brain to think that the universe has a plan for me to improve to get to where I need to be. It will take time, it will test my fucking patience. But I know if I do the work and do better, I will have a semblance or land the dream life I want to have.

Till next time, guys.

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